Posted in General Posts by Tyler Lee on 5/9/2012
The word of the month/life is Consistency.
I've been putting off writing this blog for quite a while to be honest. The things I have been learning over the past months are beyond tough to grasp. There is nothing more contrary to the world than this.
Our Savior loves us, I don't think this is a big point that i'm going to have to convince people of. However, I do feel like it is overlooked day in and day out that our Savior likes us. If Christ where here in the flesh that He would take delight in spending time with me, that I would wake up to 9 text and 2 phone calls from Him asking when we where going to meet today. Think about it, if God had a wallet, YOUR picture would be in it, and he would show it off to all his friends. He is Proud.
I make this point to bring us back to the word of the month, Consistency. I feel as though I change today for the better and tomorrow for the worse. Bare with me. Over the past while i've been downtrodden with trying to keep up with a perfect Savior. I know it seems elementary in our Faith, but wether we admit it or not, we are trying to earn our salvation. We are trying to recompense what Christ has done for us, give up. Christ did not call us to match His Love and Grace, he called us to accept it and to pass it to our brothers. I take refuge and knowing that regardless of my inconsistency, I serve the One of utmost consistency. Our Fathers LOVE never fluctiates, does that blow your mind or is it just me? Christ Loves me the exact same amount this moment that He did when I committed my first sin against him, and the moment I accepted and embraced Him. I say this as encouragement, to myself and to whomever may be reading this. The Father wants you, he wants the broken mess you are. The Father doesn't just want the spiritually mature, command abiding person you hope to become in the years to follow. He is pleased with you, not in the sin you live in, but in the righteousness He sees in you obtained by the gift of His son.
So take heart, fall on Christ consistency, let Him be what you can't. Give up this false sense of spiritual higharchy over non believers and come to the Father with humility and He will give you rest, He will bare your burden. He is Love.
I am really writing this to myself with the hopes that it resonates with someone out there, so forgive me if this message doesn't appeal to the masses.
On the subject of the trip itself, I leave for training camp next weekend the 19th, I FINALLY get to meet the rest of my family who I will be taking the trip with and it is sure to be a blast. I will update again somewhere around then, Love you all!
In Life,
Tyler
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Posted in General Posts by Tyler Lee on 1/19/2012
These days last FOREVER.
A minute is a long time.
A hour is a long time.
A year is a long time.
GOOD LORD time takes it's dang time.
These days leading up to the lauch date, and even training camp are the slowest i've ever felt.
Meeting a few members of my new family have been such a blessing, but has deffinately slowed the clock down.
What's going on with me?
Job hunt, time waisting, dreaming of the future, and sleeping through the present.
I got a new tattoo recently, I like it. I think I may keep it.
I just made a great new friend, anticipation for the future for that is high, but more on that later.
The men in my group are SOLID. I cannot wait to be one on one in conversation with these Godly men, that's what it's all about.
Emotions are steady, wounds of the past are fading, and life carrys on. Praise the Lord.
I know this wasn't the most informative blog ever, but I want anyone following me to know i'm avid, I have never been so excited for something in my entire life. Prayers are gold to me, and I am RICH.
Thank you all for your support, It is not taken lightly.
Yours in life,
Kris Lee
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Posted in General Posts by Tyler Lee on 11/9/2011
Big Question.
i will try my very best to answer this question in a way you can understand. However, guidance for the creator of the universe is something difficult to explain to say the least. That won't hold me back
Background:
This past year has been a TRIAL to say the very very least. Since January, i've had one grandparent die, one diagnosed with alsthiemers, I've been bed ridden for months only to be healed by a major surgery, and i've gone through the hardest emotional time of my life handling a breakup that I didn't see coming. Christ is all that has gotten me through this year, that I know. I've never been pushed to my limits this way before, and that's exactly what He wanted. Looking back now, even though i deal with all of these things daily still, His hand was on all of my struggles. If i hadn't been broken the way I was, I never would have left, i promise you. Christ has used this time to see where my strength comes from, I refused to turn to drugs, alcohol, and other void fillers of this world. My back was to the wall and He was my only hope, I wanted Him come through, nay, I needed Him to come through. So He did, as promised, why I doubt is beyond me, but I like all am often held captive by doubt. Forgive me.
Calling:
One afternoon I was gripped by Satan, lead to doubt my life, my relationships, and my God. I was taking a walk to rest my thoughts, but sorrow overtook. I wept, and when I say I wept, i mean i bawled like end of the notebook bawled. For those who know me I'm not one to let these emotions get the best of me, but on this day I simply could not shake it. Walking back home i saw my parents headed down the driveway in the car on the way to the local highschool football game. Them seeing my face immediately knew i was in rough shape, "Come with us" they insisted, but i withdrew not wanting to fake a smile for the night. They persisted and I caved. While at the game they introduced me to a lovely young couple, with an abundance of charisma. Me and the wife of the couple talked for what seemed like hours, about their life, mine, love, and death. Then finally we made it to the dreaded topic of my career path. I was clueless. It was tough to explain, I was at a point where I was becoming disscontent with money, security, and the 'American Dream', for reasons I couldn't explain. I had not prayed for the Lord to change my thought process on life in general, but low and behold, He took it upon Himself to change everything. Victory. As the conversation continued she began to tell me of this grand adventure a couple they knew had went on and how marvelous it was. Marvelous it is. The conversation stuck with me, a stranger at a highschool football game unknowingly changed my life, and the kingdom of heaven forever. Who believes in divine intervention? I.
From that night the Lord had a grip on me, unlike i've ever experienced. I became disgusted with the run of the mill life. Two kids, a dog, a wife, a pool in the back yard, and a steady income, sounds wonderful right? For a twenty years I thought so too, but that has changed in a way only He could bring about. I refuse to live in a way that when I am on my death bed I can pronounce that I have succeeded by living the most comfortable life possible. That is not success. So with a new outlook on life, this trip was without question what Christ has brought me to. He has blessed me with the ability, and honored me with the call. Who would I be to refuse?
All in all I hope with gave you an idea of how I have come to this calling. Again, and for the rest of my blogs, if you have any questions I will do my best to be transparent. Thank you all!
Ps. If you are interested in how Christ brought me to this way of thinking, you should read a book called Radical by David Platt. It isn't a book to be taken lightly, if you don't wish to be convicted, then steer clear.
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